Hi Sarah! I just finished reading your article and, wow, it really hit me hard. I've been wrestling with my faith for a while now.. I'm not giving up, but doubts do creep in every now and then.
I know this might not be the comment you were expecting, but I needed to get it off my chest. Right now, I'm feeling pretty low and uncertain.
Let me share a bit about my background. I was born in '96 in a refugee camp in Congo (DRC), and that same year, my parents moved back to Rwanda to start fresh after the genocide and wars in the region.
It was tough for my mom; she lost a son during that horrific time and soon after lost another, leaving me with one brother and one sister.
Things took a turn when I was around 12. My mom found out my dad had another woman, and by the time I was 14, he left us.
I found faith at 15, right before I finished high school. That year was a game changer, though.. it was also when my mom told me she had been living with HIV, along with my older brother (born with it) and my dad. It finally made sense why they had been so unhealthy.
My mom did her best to take care of us, even when my brother struggled with depression (he once left me a goodbye note.)
By God's grace, I graduated high school and got into medical school, but sadly, I didn't receive gvt sponsorship. My mom took a huge risk, sold some property, and sent me to med school. I was determined to study hard, thinking this was my opportunity to gain skills to take care of my family one day.
But every year, tuition kept going up, and by my final year (2019), my mom couldn’t support me anymore. I searched for other sponsorships but had no luck.
This sudden stop hit me hard, I fell into depression and questioned God. During my time of faith, from 2012 until that moment, I was involved in church, prayed a lot, dedicating myself.. I was a model for many of my peers.
When my studies ended, I felt betrayed by God and stopped going to church and reading the Bible. I used to think, “How can I follow a God who seems so uncaring?”
It wasn’t until after a failed suicide attempt that I started to process everything that had happened, and then COVID hit. My siblings also faced their struggles, my brother dropped out of uni (due to his illness), and my sis couldn’t finish high school for various reasons, including tuition.
Fast forward to today, I’ve accepted that my career was cut short before it really even started. In 2021, I moved to a rough area to try to start anew. I prayed about it and thought it was the best move for my family. I got a job, but it only lasted a couple of months.
Life has been incredibly tough since then. There have been countless days where I went two, three, or four days without eating, and I often faced eviction threats. But somehow, I endured.
Lately, though, I’m feeling really worn out. Nothing seems to improve. I had hoped that accepting I couldn’t go back to medicine meant God had a different plan for me, but my life feels stagnant, and things seem to be getting worse. I can barely support myself, let alone my family, who are also struggling.
My sister abandoned her faith after seeing what I went through, and my brother never believed in God, he thinks if God exists, He must be cruel.
I’ve tried so many things, but nothing is working out. I just turned 30 this month, and my mom hopes for grandkids from me. But with my current situation, how could I even think about dating? I don’t want to bring anyone into this mess.
Sometimes I feel hopeless and I ask God why this is happening. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve foolishly wished and prayed I could just be taken away.
Yet, in the midst of all this, I still cling to my faith. I truly believe in Jesus. There have been moments when I've felt like God doesn’t love me anymore, or that He doesn’t care about my struggles.
You might wonder why I still follow God despite everything. It's simple, deep down, I know He is real. I’ve read some apologetics that really helped reinforce my faith.
I’m not asking for pity here, I just wanted to share that your words really resonated with me.
Even if I can’t understand why things are as they are, I’ll hold onto my belief. I know there’s goodness ahead, and it surpasses the pain I’m experiencing now.
I say this knowing I could lose my mom and brother at any time, and that I feel trapped in my current situation. But still, I will die a believer.
So, my sister in Christ, I get it, it’s really hard. You might have a ton of questions about why things happen, but keep believing. The goodness that lies ahead far outweighs our current struggles.
First of all, praying for your recovery! Thanks for sharing & being vulnerable with your struggle. If nothing else, it’s a testimony of your faith. I know many are praying for you already!
Prov 3:5-6 has been a bedrock go-to for me & my wife for 54 years. It IS childlike faith that we need when we don’t understand the “why” or know “how” to move forward.
I’ve found that faith is simply moving forward in trust even when things are unclear, uncertain, or plain confusing.
Doc, you have a solid testimony already, you know your eternal destiny & you’ve suffered a lot & continue to press forward by faith.
Your life is a testimony all its own. May you know God’s peace & healing, amen!
Sarah, I met you online in a Reasonable Faith Zoom interview with you for a group out of Chicago on Nov 12, 2020. You may remember me as the guy who asked if you thought Dark Energy could be Jesus sustaining the universe. I got my love of apologetics under Mark Mittelberg and Lee Strobel at Willow Creek Community Church in a Chicago suburb. I passed your post on to Mark to pass to Lee.
I was diagnosed with Alzheimer's Disease two years ago on the basis of a 18-FL PET/CT scan (though as symptoms have progressed it seems to be some other or mixture of different dementias.) It was a shock, of course, but I remembered a message possibly from Dr David Jeremiah about him asking God concerning his cancer 'what do you want me to do'? rather than 'why have you allowed this in my life?' Shortly after that, my Christian retirement account manager sent me the book "Out of the Blue, the unexpected adventure of life interrupted", by Greg Murtha. Murtha follows the same guidance in describing the path he took with his cancer through over 75 rounds of chemotherapy. He saw God opening up a whole new ministry for him in the area of cancer patients. The book is wonderful - encouraging and confirming what I felt God was saying to me. My diagnosis took me and my wife of 58 years back to be in close proximity with a daughter with a neuropsychological practice as the best family support for us as this disease progressed.
The move has uncovered a serious relationship issue which needed to be addressed. And then coincidently, today the sermon we heard on Acts 8:1ff about how the early believers were scattered from their homes in Jerusalem after the martyrdom of Stephen. The pastor talked about how God's disruption of their lives could be seen as a God-directed plan to move the early church out of the comfort of Jerusalem to Judea and Samaria to carry the Gospel as commanded in Acts 1:8 - "...you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the end of the earth." So the disruption became not an interruption but an invitation by God for a change in their plans. As it was a snow day today with all in-person church services canceled, we watched online from our apartment with a couple whose husband was experiencing a similar medical condition to mine and a new 96 year old believer. The discussion of the "disruptions" in our lives and how they evidenced the direction of God was a wonderful discussion topic after the service.
We will be praying for your "disruption" - that the surgery was very successful and the directional change your life may be taking as a result. Thank you for sharing your situation. I had been missing your weekly SubStack posts and was thankful to find out what was happening with you. God bless you and your family!
I pray for you and a successful surgery. The 2 certainties a catholic has is that we will be born to eternal life when we leave this world, and everything is in his Hands. Nada te turbe, nada te espante, quien a Dios tiene, nada le falta, as Sta Teresa of Jesus said (Let nothing disturb you, nothing scare you, he who has God lacks nothing). God bless you.
I’m holding you in my thoughts and prayers as you recover from surgery.
Thank you for your insights. My husband (and Methodist Minister of 40 years, we’ve been married nearly 4 years) is 9 weeks post triple heart bypass surgery and I will be showing him this post.
Good morning, Sarah. I remember your post when you were stepping away for some “self-time”. Something we all need to do from time to time. Good for you in doing so.
Faith, something I struggle with from time to time myself, especially now.
The company I work for found out last year that our parent company was taking over our operation and closing our doors. They gathered all of us together in one room and announced their plans and that we were all losing our jobs. As I looked across the room, I could see totally confused faces everywhere.
Back to faith. As a 40-year Christian, I found myself totally dependent on God's promises in Psa 23, “Yeah though I walked through the valley of death, Thou art with me.”
Faith is so hard to explain to some, especially non-Christians. When they challenge me on my faith, I always ask them, “When you sat down in that chair, did you check to make sure all the screws were there, or did you just trust that they were and sat down?” That is how my faith in God is. Simple, yes, but sometimes we make believing and accepting God's faithfulness harder than it needs to be.
May 31st will be my last day. Am I now sitting around doing nothing? No, I am putting plans together and trusting God’s leading me down the right path.
I am praying for you and your family, Sarah. Thank you for sharing your story with us. As a believer, you know God is walking with you every step of the way.
Sarah you are an such intellectual bright light and a thoughtful , caring person , I hope and pray you recover fully.
I think we should all fully appreciate Terry Whalen’s comment emphasizing we are eternal spirits… in a body. This is consistent with the Adam and Eve story that we were originally made in God’s image purposed to be eternal beings in his kingdom , not made for this fallen world . Here we are all subject to eventually suffer in degrees, and die. I must say too often it seems the best and most innocent seem to suffer the most. I know God loves us like you love your daughter , so suffering in this world must be a form of cleansing necessary for our fallen human nature . I like to think the best folks who suffer greatly in this world are rewarded with immediate glorification in the next.
May God bless you and give this world a little more time with you
Truly enjoyed your article, thanks for sharing publicly what must be difficult.
Job, I've decided, is not an exception to a 'normal' life - I think his book was included in the canon of scripture precisely because his life was meant as a 'blueprint' for what we can expect while here on this earth. Perhaps not in the same way as him - but in a way that will uniquely try us and tempt us to question our faith in Him.
I do favor Job's approach to develop a daily walk and talk with the Lord in prayer. He seems to be comforatble in a relationship with Him. So, I've strived to be more 'comfortable' with Him too. What I discovered is that He continues to be more than whatever I believe Him to be at any moment I think I have come to know Him - if that makes any sense at all.
Job questioned all that happened to him. So I tried it too - and found it oddly liberating, but instructional at the same time. Questioning His will for me Is, I've think - expected. And I think He wants to know what I'll do next and wants me to discuss it with Him.
Funny thing is though, that in each instance in my life when there is no 'apparent' reason left to trust Him and deciding to do so anyway - following Job's ultimate example,"...blessed be the name of the Lord" - and all that comes with such a decision - seems to help me be at peace.
After first trying to live my life without Him in it, then trying it the other way... I've never gone back. I found that no matter what happens to me, it's always better with Him in it, than a life without.
Now that in my 70th decade of life I've decided I really don't know yet His full character - having foolishly thought previously that I did. I'm not sure if that's due to my willful ignorance or that when it comes to spiritual things I'm just a slow learner.
But I do know with a quiet certainty...that He IS there and the striving to have a relationship with Him matters in everything.
I’m now 86 and death is closer for me and I have discovered something that is a great comfort. That is the realization that we are eternal beings. We are not a body with a spirit, we are an eternal spirit in a body. God made us in his image… and he entered a body once to show us this truth.
Once you see this eternal part of us, you can have a different view of the time we are living in. We hurt ourselves worrying about the future, or regretting the past. To quote Brennan manning, living in the present moment the closest we get to eternity in this live. I will continue praying for you and your healing
Sarah, you may not have noticed but I haven’t been following you much lately, I was too busy with details of finishing my book. with but just renewed my subscription last week. Then I get the message about your new bout with cancer.
I’m sure it has felt like gut blow. I had prostate cancer two years ago and even though it was not immediately life threatening, there were times that were tough and discouraging. In asked if I was going to die.
I had a serious health issue about a year ago, and felt certain I had cancer. Thankfully, I didn't, but the way it seems to be going around, that scare was probably a great taste of what's to come.
In the midst of the season of not knowing, assuming that my decline was certain and that symptoms would worsen, I suddenly felt very grateful. I love my life. I'm grateful for when I can get outside to feel the sun on my skin. I am thrilled to have met my kids, and get to have a wonderful relationship with my wife. I go to a church that is not perfect, but I think God's doing a work there, and it's such a privilege to glimpse that glory that makes the angels wonder. I mean, I'm SUPER looking forward to worshipping my Savior in eternity, but .... breathing is pretty great. I'm blessed in so many ways.... so many ways that I can't even understand. Right now, Jesus is holding together my mitochondria. I can't even fathom all that he's doing.
Someday it will all stop. Goodbyes will end. I'll glimpse God's work this side of eternity one last time. And my mitochondria will stop working.
But for right now. In my pain and the fears and frustrations... life is pretty great. I'm so grateful.
Saying a prayer for you. May Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith-that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may have strength to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth, and to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled with all the fullness of God. (Ephesians 3:17-19)
King David was alone and was taught to write these words “ when I am afraid I will trust in You. In God I trust when I am afraid. In God whose word I praise in God I trust. I will not be afraid.” 🤠 peace🙏
Hello Sarah - your references to the Book of Job reminded me of a devotional that may comfort you and any of your readers who face difficult times. I have read thru it twice over the years.
The Book of Job - is an ancient writing, but clearly on of the very great documents from all of history - however, it can be ‘daunting’, especially when we need it most.
Therefore I would like to recommend Mike Mason’s yearlong devotional titled: “The Gospel According to Job: An Honest Look at Pain and Doubt from the Life of One Who Lost Everything.” You will be challenged and blessed by it. - William
Hi Sarah! I just finished reading your article and, wow, it really hit me hard. I've been wrestling with my faith for a while now.. I'm not giving up, but doubts do creep in every now and then.
I know this might not be the comment you were expecting, but I needed to get it off my chest. Right now, I'm feeling pretty low and uncertain.
Let me share a bit about my background. I was born in '96 in a refugee camp in Congo (DRC), and that same year, my parents moved back to Rwanda to start fresh after the genocide and wars in the region.
It was tough for my mom; she lost a son during that horrific time and soon after lost another, leaving me with one brother and one sister.
Things took a turn when I was around 12. My mom found out my dad had another woman, and by the time I was 14, he left us.
I found faith at 15, right before I finished high school. That year was a game changer, though.. it was also when my mom told me she had been living with HIV, along with my older brother (born with it) and my dad. It finally made sense why they had been so unhealthy.
My mom did her best to take care of us, even when my brother struggled with depression (he once left me a goodbye note.)
By God's grace, I graduated high school and got into medical school, but sadly, I didn't receive gvt sponsorship. My mom took a huge risk, sold some property, and sent me to med school. I was determined to study hard, thinking this was my opportunity to gain skills to take care of my family one day.
But every year, tuition kept going up, and by my final year (2019), my mom couldn’t support me anymore. I searched for other sponsorships but had no luck.
This sudden stop hit me hard, I fell into depression and questioned God. During my time of faith, from 2012 until that moment, I was involved in church, prayed a lot, dedicating myself.. I was a model for many of my peers.
When my studies ended, I felt betrayed by God and stopped going to church and reading the Bible. I used to think, “How can I follow a God who seems so uncaring?”
It wasn’t until after a failed suicide attempt that I started to process everything that had happened, and then COVID hit. My siblings also faced their struggles, my brother dropped out of uni (due to his illness), and my sis couldn’t finish high school for various reasons, including tuition.
Fast forward to today, I’ve accepted that my career was cut short before it really even started. In 2021, I moved to a rough area to try to start anew. I prayed about it and thought it was the best move for my family. I got a job, but it only lasted a couple of months.
Life has been incredibly tough since then. There have been countless days where I went two, three, or four days without eating, and I often faced eviction threats. But somehow, I endured.
Lately, though, I’m feeling really worn out. Nothing seems to improve. I had hoped that accepting I couldn’t go back to medicine meant God had a different plan for me, but my life feels stagnant, and things seem to be getting worse. I can barely support myself, let alone my family, who are also struggling.
My sister abandoned her faith after seeing what I went through, and my brother never believed in God, he thinks if God exists, He must be cruel.
I’ve tried so many things, but nothing is working out. I just turned 30 this month, and my mom hopes for grandkids from me. But with my current situation, how could I even think about dating? I don’t want to bring anyone into this mess.
Sometimes I feel hopeless and I ask God why this is happening. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve foolishly wished and prayed I could just be taken away.
Yet, in the midst of all this, I still cling to my faith. I truly believe in Jesus. There have been moments when I've felt like God doesn’t love me anymore, or that He doesn’t care about my struggles.
You might wonder why I still follow God despite everything. It's simple, deep down, I know He is real. I’ve read some apologetics that really helped reinforce my faith.
I’m not asking for pity here, I just wanted to share that your words really resonated with me.
Even if I can’t understand why things are as they are, I’ll hold onto my belief. I know there’s goodness ahead, and it surpasses the pain I’m experiencing now.
I say this knowing I could lose my mom and brother at any time, and that I feel trapped in my current situation. But still, I will die a believer.
So, my sister in Christ, I get it, it’s really hard. You might have a ton of questions about why things happen, but keep believing. The goodness that lies ahead far outweighs our current struggles.
I’ll be praying for you. Take care!
First of all, praying for your recovery! Thanks for sharing & being vulnerable with your struggle. If nothing else, it’s a testimony of your faith. I know many are praying for you already!
Prov 3:5-6 has been a bedrock go-to for me & my wife for 54 years. It IS childlike faith that we need when we don’t understand the “why” or know “how” to move forward.
I’ve found that faith is simply moving forward in trust even when things are unclear, uncertain, or plain confusing.
Doc, you have a solid testimony already, you know your eternal destiny & you’ve suffered a lot & continue to press forward by faith.
Your life is a testimony all its own. May you know God’s peace & healing, amen!
May the Lord bless you and bring his healing grace upon you. 🙏🥰
Sarah, I met you online in a Reasonable Faith Zoom interview with you for a group out of Chicago on Nov 12, 2020. You may remember me as the guy who asked if you thought Dark Energy could be Jesus sustaining the universe. I got my love of apologetics under Mark Mittelberg and Lee Strobel at Willow Creek Community Church in a Chicago suburb. I passed your post on to Mark to pass to Lee.
I was diagnosed with Alzheimer's Disease two years ago on the basis of a 18-FL PET/CT scan (though as symptoms have progressed it seems to be some other or mixture of different dementias.) It was a shock, of course, but I remembered a message possibly from Dr David Jeremiah about him asking God concerning his cancer 'what do you want me to do'? rather than 'why have you allowed this in my life?' Shortly after that, my Christian retirement account manager sent me the book "Out of the Blue, the unexpected adventure of life interrupted", by Greg Murtha. Murtha follows the same guidance in describing the path he took with his cancer through over 75 rounds of chemotherapy. He saw God opening up a whole new ministry for him in the area of cancer patients. The book is wonderful - encouraging and confirming what I felt God was saying to me. My diagnosis took me and my wife of 58 years back to be in close proximity with a daughter with a neuropsychological practice as the best family support for us as this disease progressed.
The move has uncovered a serious relationship issue which needed to be addressed. And then coincidently, today the sermon we heard on Acts 8:1ff about how the early believers were scattered from their homes in Jerusalem after the martyrdom of Stephen. The pastor talked about how God's disruption of their lives could be seen as a God-directed plan to move the early church out of the comfort of Jerusalem to Judea and Samaria to carry the Gospel as commanded in Acts 1:8 - "...you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the end of the earth." So the disruption became not an interruption but an invitation by God for a change in their plans. As it was a snow day today with all in-person church services canceled, we watched online from our apartment with a couple whose husband was experiencing a similar medical condition to mine and a new 96 year old believer. The discussion of the "disruptions" in our lives and how they evidenced the direction of God was a wonderful discussion topic after the service.
We will be praying for your "disruption" - that the surgery was very successful and the directional change your life may be taking as a result. Thank you for sharing your situation. I had been missing your weekly SubStack posts and was thankful to find out what was happening with you. God bless you and your family!
Rick
I pray for you and a successful surgery. The 2 certainties a catholic has is that we will be born to eternal life when we leave this world, and everything is in his Hands. Nada te turbe, nada te espante, quien a Dios tiene, nada le falta, as Sta Teresa of Jesus said (Let nothing disturb you, nothing scare you, he who has God lacks nothing). God bless you.
Get well. And rest well. You're on the right path. Those you love will always be with you, where ever you are.
I’m holding you in my thoughts and prayers as you recover from surgery.
Thank you for your insights. My husband (and Methodist Minister of 40 years, we’ve been married nearly 4 years) is 9 weeks post triple heart bypass surgery and I will be showing him this post.
Big hugs.
Dee
x
Good morning, Sarah. I remember your post when you were stepping away for some “self-time”. Something we all need to do from time to time. Good for you in doing so.
Faith, something I struggle with from time to time myself, especially now.
The company I work for found out last year that our parent company was taking over our operation and closing our doors. They gathered all of us together in one room and announced their plans and that we were all losing our jobs. As I looked across the room, I could see totally confused faces everywhere.
Back to faith. As a 40-year Christian, I found myself totally dependent on God's promises in Psa 23, “Yeah though I walked through the valley of death, Thou art with me.”
Faith is so hard to explain to some, especially non-Christians. When they challenge me on my faith, I always ask them, “When you sat down in that chair, did you check to make sure all the screws were there, or did you just trust that they were and sat down?” That is how my faith in God is. Simple, yes, but sometimes we make believing and accepting God's faithfulness harder than it needs to be.
May 31st will be my last day. Am I now sitting around doing nothing? No, I am putting plans together and trusting God’s leading me down the right path.
I am praying for you and your family, Sarah. Thank you for sharing your story with us. As a believer, you know God is walking with you every step of the way.
Sarah you are an such intellectual bright light and a thoughtful , caring person , I hope and pray you recover fully.
I think we should all fully appreciate Terry Whalen’s comment emphasizing we are eternal spirits… in a body. This is consistent with the Adam and Eve story that we were originally made in God’s image purposed to be eternal beings in his kingdom , not made for this fallen world . Here we are all subject to eventually suffer in degrees, and die. I must say too often it seems the best and most innocent seem to suffer the most. I know God loves us like you love your daughter , so suffering in this world must be a form of cleansing necessary for our fallen human nature . I like to think the best folks who suffer greatly in this world are rewarded with immediate glorification in the next.
May God bless you and give this world a little more time with you
Truly enjoyed your article, thanks for sharing publicly what must be difficult.
Job, I've decided, is not an exception to a 'normal' life - I think his book was included in the canon of scripture precisely because his life was meant as a 'blueprint' for what we can expect while here on this earth. Perhaps not in the same way as him - but in a way that will uniquely try us and tempt us to question our faith in Him.
I do favor Job's approach to develop a daily walk and talk with the Lord in prayer. He seems to be comforatble in a relationship with Him. So, I've strived to be more 'comfortable' with Him too. What I discovered is that He continues to be more than whatever I believe Him to be at any moment I think I have come to know Him - if that makes any sense at all.
Job questioned all that happened to him. So I tried it too - and found it oddly liberating, but instructional at the same time. Questioning His will for me Is, I've think - expected. And I think He wants to know what I'll do next and wants me to discuss it with Him.
Funny thing is though, that in each instance in my life when there is no 'apparent' reason left to trust Him and deciding to do so anyway - following Job's ultimate example,"...blessed be the name of the Lord" - and all that comes with such a decision - seems to help me be at peace.
After first trying to live my life without Him in it, then trying it the other way... I've never gone back. I found that no matter what happens to me, it's always better with Him in it, than a life without.
Now that in my 70th decade of life I've decided I really don't know yet His full character - having foolishly thought previously that I did. I'm not sure if that's due to my willful ignorance or that when it comes to spiritual things I'm just a slow learner.
But I do know with a quiet certainty...that He IS there and the striving to have a relationship with Him matters in everything.
Blame my fat fingers for the typos
I’m now 86 and death is closer for me and I have discovered something that is a great comfort. That is the realization that we are eternal beings. We are not a body with a spirit, we are an eternal spirit in a body. God made us in his image… and he entered a body once to show us this truth.
Once you see this eternal part of us, you can have a different view of the time we are living in. We hurt ourselves worrying about the future, or regretting the past. To quote Brennan manning, living in the present moment the closest we get to eternity in this live. I will continue praying for you and your healing
Sarah, you may not have noticed but I haven’t been following you much lately, I was too busy with details of finishing my book. with but just renewed my subscription last week. Then I get the message about your new bout with cancer.
I’m sure it has felt like gut blow. I had prostate cancer two years ago and even though it was not immediately life threatening, there were times that were tough and discouraging. In asked if I was going to die.
I had a serious health issue about a year ago, and felt certain I had cancer. Thankfully, I didn't, but the way it seems to be going around, that scare was probably a great taste of what's to come.
In the midst of the season of not knowing, assuming that my decline was certain and that symptoms would worsen, I suddenly felt very grateful. I love my life. I'm grateful for when I can get outside to feel the sun on my skin. I am thrilled to have met my kids, and get to have a wonderful relationship with my wife. I go to a church that is not perfect, but I think God's doing a work there, and it's such a privilege to glimpse that glory that makes the angels wonder. I mean, I'm SUPER looking forward to worshipping my Savior in eternity, but .... breathing is pretty great. I'm blessed in so many ways.... so many ways that I can't even understand. Right now, Jesus is holding together my mitochondria. I can't even fathom all that he's doing.
Someday it will all stop. Goodbyes will end. I'll glimpse God's work this side of eternity one last time. And my mitochondria will stop working.
But for right now. In my pain and the fears and frustrations... life is pretty great. I'm so grateful.
Saying a prayer for you. May Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith-that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may have strength to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth, and to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled with all the fullness of God. (Ephesians 3:17-19)
King David was alone and was taught to write these words “ when I am afraid I will trust in You. In God I trust when I am afraid. In God whose word I praise in God I trust. I will not be afraid.” 🤠 peace🙏
Hello Sarah - your references to the Book of Job reminded me of a devotional that may comfort you and any of your readers who face difficult times. I have read thru it twice over the years.
The Book of Job - is an ancient writing, but clearly on of the very great documents from all of history - however, it can be ‘daunting’, especially when we need it most.
Therefore I would like to recommend Mike Mason’s yearlong devotional titled: “The Gospel According to Job: An Honest Look at Pain and Doubt from the Life of One Who Lost Everything.” You will be challenged and blessed by it. - William